It’s been a whirlwind day – I haven’t even been able to post about my morning yoga yet . It was lovely! Lots to do. One step at a time.
Preparing for my 10pm meditation – it’s frosty out so I’m opting for a lavender bath salt hot bath meditation. Ohhmmmm #serenity
Day 13 / Forgiveness and Men
It’s interesting how some topics seem easier than others. This one is a challenge for me. I wonder if it is for all women – that we all have men in our lives who have hurt us. Certainly the statistics on how often women are abused by men seem to bear that out.
I certainly want to start with the thought that a man who deliberately hurts a woman is at fault and should take responsibility for his actions.
That being said, I think in many cases the man’s aim is not to hurt the woman. It’s more that he, himself, is feeling upset or trapped or hurt and he makes a decision in the moment which maybe isn’t the best one. He’s a human. He makes an unwise choice.
In my own life, I’ve certainly had my “heart broken”. But looking objectively at the relationship, it was not a golden-perfect relationship. It had flaws and I tried to plow on anyway. If he did not want to, then it was best for us not to be together. A relationship only works if both halves want it. Should the separation have gone better? Certainly, but again, we’re all human. We all feel angst and emotions during that time and maybe don’t make the best of decisions. And that’s understandable.
I think of the Eleanor Roosevelt quote, ‘No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.’ I think the same is true for heartache. We tend to look at the action as something Man X actively forced on us and we were a helpless dandelion seed adrift in the wind. But I think in most cases it’s different than that. Usually we knew it wasn’t quite right. We tried to force a square shape into a round hole and the pain is that we couldn’t wrest the world into our ideal vision. Maybe, instead, we should have given ourselves credit for trying our best, appreciated the good times we had, and accept that this combination simply was not meant to be. Maybe even find a way to be grateful that things ended when they did both so they did not get far worse and so we are now free to pursue the path which brings us far better joy.
I’m not saying it’s easy. But I see woman after woman wallowing in angst and unhappiness months or years after a break-up, and the destruction of their body’s health seems a shame. We only have one body. We only have one lifetime. We should nurture the former and treasure the latter. To destroy and lose both over something in the past that wasn’t meant to be seems almost a squandering of something precious.
A lovely yoga session this morning; Juliet the cat helped me with cat-cow. Bob braved the frigid cold to bring seed and suet to the birds.
Day 12 / Forgiveness and Women – I pondered this both yesterday and today. Supporting women is key in every day of my life. My books support battered women’s shelters. My websites support women in a variety of ways. I know our culture creates hurdles for women. I want to do my best to counteract that.
It also seems that, many times, women can undermine themselves. It seems primarily women who post the “ha ha look at this person’s stupid clothes” messages, where the delight is in looking down at another person. Women can be snarky about how other women “should not be seen” on a beach in anything less than a burqa. In an era where we should support each other in all body shapes and sizes, it seems women are the most vocal in putting down others. Why do we perpetuate that kind of a message?
We seem to do that socially as well. We can be vocal about how others have flaws and failings, denigrating those who do not “measure up” in whatever way – and at the same time complaining that they judge us. If we don’t want to be judged, shouldn’t it mean we should resist judging others? Is judging necessary? Can we simply accept that we’re all on a path and it’s OK that we’re at different stages on our paths?
Of course, am I judging others by pondering this? . Should I be more tolerant of those who actively post judgmental posts? .
10pm meditation is coming up – I’ll meditate on yesterday’s forgiveness topic – “women”. A good topic to ponder. Join me!
Day 11 / Forgiveness and Career. This was Saturday’s focus. For me this was a quite easy one – I adore what I do every day. I am just so happy with what I spend my time on. I love helping BellaOnline editors reach their dreams. I love writing novels that provide healthy role models. I am having great fun with photography and watercoloring.
Every job I had up until now has helped guide me on the path here, so whether they were challenging or stressful, I appreciate them. They all helped me build the skills I now use.
How do you feel about your current career path?
10pm meditation time is here – close your eyes, follow your breath, and regain your center . Join me! #meditate #peace
Day 10 / Forgiveness and money. So many relationships collapse due to money issues. So many lives are stressed because of money. We get surrounded by images of things we “must have” – kids whine because they’re poor, while they’re playing with smart phones and watching large-screen TVs. Adults buy things on credit cards and are unable to pay them off. We spin our wheels on tasks which bring in little money.
I think this is a good topic for many of us to ponder. How do we feel about money? Are we upset about it? Envious? Petulant? Do we feel we deserve more? Ashamed we don’t have enough? Think of all the better ways that energy could be used!
Imagine you’re a waitress. If all day you’re grumpy about money, your customers probably sense that unhappiness and don’t give great tips. But if you’re smiling and happy, and radiate joy while you help each table, you probably get larger tips. And that then equals more money .
Or at work if you’re a happy, focused, team-building person, you probably get more raises and promotions on average than the distracted, grumpy person.