Okay, sadly this might be long and annoy. But I am having problems with my whole love life....To start off...
I go to this Church that has very few people there. I am in home school so Church is my only social life outside of myspace where I have friends I have never met in person. Though one dood that used to go to my Church got a divorce, then remarried, and then moved back here. Since he didn't have a house to live in are Church lent him the parsonage. Though his new wife had like 4 kids from a previous marriage. And one of them was around my age. I am practically died when I first saw him. I like at once knew that I wanted/needed him. As corny as that sounds. Though I kinda thought it was kinda by default since he was the only person around my age that I saw. But it didn't matter to me. But I was way to shy to even talk to him. But I talked to my best friend about him a lot like I was an obsessed freak. And my best friend's grades were dropping so he had to go to the 'bad kids' school where the dood I like went. I didn't know for awhile and then all of a sudden out of no where the dood I like ask me my name. And then later I was like freaking out to my best friend and he was all like 'oh about that...' he had told him that I liked him and stuff. So I was like gonna have a heart attack. But then we began talk a lot more and he was sooo sweet. And then around V-Day I gave him a poem....and I think was being too....strong about it. Even though I was just admitting my mere attraction. But he told me that we couldn't be together because of some mental issues he was having. So I respected that. And then he finally got a myspace and were where like non stop talking. I have really gotten to know him A LOT more. And he just leaves me breathless. But...I let out my feelings again and he told me he was with someone. At first I was really really sad because I obviously want him more then anything in the world. But as strange as it is...I am really happy about it all because if that girl makes him happy then it makes me happy. I cant help but think that I am not in love with him I just love him as a person. but I would still think it wa ubber cool if we could get together. I am not sure I really have a question just someone to tell me if it sounds like I will every have a chance...Or it just sounds like I am ignorantly awaiting love that will never come true??
