I am in a great relationship with my boyfriend of 7 months. We are long distance right now and my jealousy problems are cuaseing serious problems for us. I had complete trust for him until 3 months in when i was snoopping on his email. The emails were very bad (he was trying to hire escorts and had 1 that bugged me the most to a 2 a massage lady) these emails were from 2 years before we knew each other (and we were great friends for a year and a half before we dated) but they still got under my skin, he lied to me about them at first but then came clean. Since then I have had alot of trouble trusting him and have been getting insainly jealous over a old girlfriend, this 1 girl i found out he slept with years ago, those emails, his nudie/bikini girls calenders, and any girl that so much as talks to him. Its got so bad he has pretty much said that i need to stop or he doesn't think we can continue (which was the hardest thing in the world 2 hear) we are very serious, planning our future ect. and i cannot imagine my life without him. But i honestly cant stop
I was only jealous with 1 boyfriend before and i later found out that was because he had cut a whole in his condom and i was pregnant and hormonal (i had a miscarriage before i knew i was and he told me) I NEED to stop but i cant get the feelings to stop or me to stop vocalizing them (i feel like im going 2 explode if i dont) the feels i think might be because i have been cheated on and betrayed many times in the past and now that i have found someone i truly care about its coming back to haunt me
PLEASE HELP I CANNOT LOOSE HIM!!!
