I think age has everything to do with it. With age comes experience. Lots of it. Too bad about that, but that's how it goes.
The only unconditional love (which I think you are thinking about) is that between parent and child. Every other kind is conditional and should be. You should never blindly put yourself through sometthing abusive are harmful to you in the name of "love". Of course, there are ups and downs and this is what you learn to do AFTER you have gone through the "in love" state, which you don't do if it doesn't make it long enough.
You sound like a nice person, I hope the best comes your way, but you have a lot to learn as we all do.
Never heard that Risk is the second name of love. I thought sacrifice was.
Risk would be the second name of life
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