I'm no where near your age. I'm an old man of 65. But I care about what is happening to you and the way that life is treating you.
One thing that is good, I think. You're able to talk to us.
It's good to have friends, don't you think?
Try to hold on. Just a little while longer, and you can legally be on your own.
I know - two years or so is not "a little while" to you.
But we're on your side!