first and foremost can you go talk to your parents or guardian?sounds like you need someone close to you to open up with. that is important to have communication with your family whomever that may be.
also, it is not right to go after a boy. when you get older dating begins and proper courting not competition between friends. focus on school. in 10 years you probably won't even know these people so don't let it get under your skin!!! not worth it.
do you have a parent to talk with openly? that is where you should start. or school counselor? these are heavy issues in life and you need to talk to someone close to you. it is ok.
really. keep up with school it is important. boys come and go but school is key in your life right now. boys are always there no matter what age you are! focus on your priorities, and put boys at the very bottom of that list.
good luck-
