Hey ashes. I'm sry to hear what happened. I know you loved him with all your heart. I know this is difficult for you, for anyone who had to be separated from their love. When they are separated, they fill the need to find other ways to fill the void. I know i have. Yall know of my issues. I'm continually fighting it each and everyday. That's one of the reasons i took up 3D animation. It gave me something to do, something to take my mind off of my first love. Ever since then I've been trying so hard just to find another. Only doing that i thought i could be happy. I was wrong. Seriously wrong. My heart maybe ready for another, but the question..."Am I ready for her?(Whoever she may be)" Ever since I've been single for the past few months, I've been happier, more confident in myself and I learned so much more cause I am more open to the world and my god. I believe, he will show me my one true love.
I hopes this helps in anyway. If you have questions...you where you can reach me.