I feel really stupid and confused right now. My ex and I were together for three years. It wasn't perfect but we loved each other a great deal. I ended up breaking it off over a year ago because we were at different places in our lives and we had been fighting a lot. It was a very hard thing to do. I cried a lot during that time and it was hard not to run back to him.
We stayed in touch, talking once a month, and I ended up moving in with a friend. I suppose my ex assumed I was dating him (He was actually gay) and he wanted to talk more and sent and answered emails more until he finally asked me about him. I can only assume he saw photos of us together being goofy on Facebook for him to get that impression. (We are not friends on that website) When I told him no, I was single he continued on talking to me just as much as before. Finally two months ago I told him that I still had feelings for him. This was after all of his complaints of not being with anyone since we broke up yadda yadda. He told me that he just wanted to be friends and suddenly he dropped off the face of the Earth.
That hurt a lot so I sent him a text about how that hurt my feelings and if he just didn't want to talk to me then just say so. After I sent that text he called me at his work asking what was wrong and that he would call me that night. It's been awkward ever since. Recently I got into a very bad car accident and he started texting and calling again. I've been very depressed lately so he has been cheering me up but it hurts. Ever since then he has said that he doesn't love me like he used to but he doesn't want to rule out the possibility for us to be together in the future.
I'm bedridden, surrounded by cats, so I am miserable got a call from him today. It lightened my mood until he started complaining about how one of his "hot coworkers" called him creepy for trying to be nice to her. He then went on a rant about all of it. I became quiet and didn't say anything. I don't get it, why would he say that to me if he knows how I feel? It just really hurts. I don't want to use my accident as an excuse for him to be nice to me or lie about whats going on in his life. I'd rather he be honest and be up front instead of play games. That's what I have always been about and he knows it. Why would he want to talk to me a lot when he thought I was in a relationship? I'm confused about a lot of things. Maybe because I'm kind of out of it with pain meds (lol) but I really hope I could get some unbiased advice. Thank you