It's gotten worse. We've separated and pretty much completely disintegrated.
I still want to do counseling, but don't know if I can afford it or if the health insurance with cover it. I haven't looked too much into it... I really should.. It's just been very hard lately.
Part of me is thrilled and feeling... free for the first time in my young life. I blame this separation on myself. Every since losing my religion I've had so many regrets for not living my life and marriage was half terrifying me and half making me hate myself for not being the woman he married.
Erg...
But yeah. I should at least do counseling for myself, if not couple's counseling. Separation and divorce is no easy thing.
