Thank you.
For actually reading it all and for your words. I just mainly want to hope for the best... but I should prepare for the worst beforehand.
Yeah for the most part its just very confusing... she wonders as to how I could like her saying "Why do you like me I'm so (insert random bad trait she doesn't really even have.)" Then I just laugh at the situation. Says that I'm really sweet to her, when I'm really not being sweet at all. She even constantly asked when she was here what I was thinking or if I was ok every time I got quiet.
I don't think there are any other guys, I am certain of this. At least not for now anyway. I do know I have some impact on her, and holds me in a special place; yet if I ever found out I was just some toy to her or someone she could call when she needed a fix... then that'd be it, I would wash my hands of her.
I'm just going to have to bite the bullet on this one. You're right about how I feel, I can't stand being alone in the dark about it. Its like solitary confinement, and that one hour a day of exercise outside just doesn't cut it.
But again, thank you for your words. I wish I could shake your hand.
