Talking to someone will definitely help you. I am sorry that you and Steve seem to be done - I know it's probably painful but I'm sure it will get easier as the time passes.
Sorry about your car and not being able to go to Israel this year. It's good you're trying to stay positive though - saying that you'll have more financial security and you can always go next year to Israel.
Bad things usually happen in 3's - hopefully you're near to that integral and then you'll have some relief for a while.
