To Carl:
Don't worry. I didn't take this as an attack. I'm quite open-minded.
I just didn't want to tell my social worker today otherwise it would bug me the whole weekend. I just really need to concentrate and shut all my emtional levels down, just so that I can study. This exam... it's really important for me. This is my chance to prove my worth to me father, so you can imagine why I don't want anything to get in the way.
Sometimes I look a bit too closely at myself that it scares me. It's then that I back away a bit too far and not see myself at all. You see what I mean? It's confusing.
To ma'am PDM:
I have thought about that speaking to her might make me concentrate better, but I don't want to risk it that it might not make me feel better. I will, however, let her know that I would like to see her for an indepth discussion sometime soon.
I hate lies and white lies too, but sometimes I need to use them just so that I can heal myself a bit.
Thanks for the positive reinforcements ^^ They really do help.
