I don't know enough to truly understand. I don't know your boyfriend, his parents, your dad - even you. But I think it is too soon for major changes.
You are not wanting to open up to the social worker because of your need to study for exams, which is to make your Dad proud of you.
And you are not talking to your boyfriend or your Dad (I'm guessing) about all that is going on with you.
The feeling that I'm getting is that the talking - with all of them, at varying levels - is going to be the way that you get to a happy medium.
By that, I mean at a coping level - where you can look at yourself without cringing but not forget you are there, either.
It might be that the worries you sense with your boyfriend might be more about concerns for you than you know.
Take your exams, and then take the step which will start to make you happier with yourself.
